it's love;

Monday, June 08, 2009

I can't wait to meet you tomorrow baby(:

nurul penned her thoughts at 6:53 PM Y

Thursday, May 14, 2009

one two three words.

eleven.

airport.

mcdonalds.

thirty six.

esplanade.

facility management.

one nine five.

the central.

seven eleven.

long island.

cheers.

carlsberg.

twelve.

nurul penned her thoughts at 2:16 AM Y

Friday, May 01, 2009

ON HIATUS!

until I'm free to update?

nurul penned her thoughts at 11:08 AM Y

Friday, April 17, 2009

"Life lives, life dies. Life laughs, life cries. Life gives up and life tries. But life looks different through everyone's eyes.”

Death.

It's ironic how it's number 2 on most people's list. Number 1 happens to be the fear of public speaking. And death, it's taken number 2.

For me personally, I'm not sure which is worst. To die and leave your loved ones forever with no form of contact - maybe in dreams? But then again, that's a bit far-fetched since I'm not sure how it goes. For all you know, it's the play of the sub-conscious mind on us. Or to humiliate yourself in front of many that may scarred you, prolly for the rest of your life and that it might affect your self-confidence to talk in front of people?

See, both are equally bad I suppose. One can never decipher or explain which is worst. At least, in my own brief explanation, I think I've summed up the general idea.

Death's never easy on the people. It leaves a permanent emotional scar in their hearts and that that empty void will always be there, no matter how long it's been. The saying, "Time heals all wounds" is such a major understatement. I suppose it's being coined to maybe ease a little bit of the pain? Maybe the pain would in some ways, subside, but it'll always be there when you visit places which holds a lot of memory. In some ways, you'll miss them and you'll still hope that their face, voices will still be remembered by you. And you dread the day when you start "losing" the face and maybe you'll forget how they sound like.

My grandmother was a noisy and pushy old woman, but despite that, she was hardworking and had a good sense of humour. Like a class clown of sorts. She was 78 and yet, she had left. It's really sad not to mention devastating that death could end her life so abruptly - she must've been thinking that she was still in the prime of my mom, my dad, my uncles, my auntys, wanting to provide many things for the family etc. Then again, like the saying, her fate was already written.

The dead or should I say, the departed wouldn't wanna us to mourn for them throughout our lives, putting a stop in our daily routine to mourn for them. They would (I think) want us to slowly to make our move on with life. They are indeed as hard as it is to say, part of the past now, nothing will ever bring them back to our present or our future. Maybe in dreams. But what's important is now and that the present holds much more. I'm not saying we can't mourn, but do not mourn excessively. It'll not only bring harm to you, but think of what the departed would say, when they see you in such a state.

Of course, words are easy to write, but the hardest part comes when it's being applied to reality. And as cliche as it may sound, I hope I'll stay strong and that I'm sure, my granns, is in a better place right now.

Rest in peace, granns.

nurul penned her thoughts at 7:51 PM Y

Thursday, April 09, 2009

randomness.

What is your True Fear?

Your Result: Where Your life is Going

You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what.
You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan.

What is your True Fear?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Sometimes, these kind of things speak nothing but the truth. Oh wells.

nurul penned her thoughts at 9:40 AM Y

Thursday, April 02, 2009

getting ready for school ...not

This week, marks the last three weeks of the holidays which means once it's over, it'll mark the end of the holidays, and then make way for the semester which will commence on the 20th! And I totally cannot bring myself to the point that I spent my 10 weeks of holidays just like that. 70% on a not-so-exciting internship, and 30% on enjoyment. What an excruciating way to spend the holidays! Nonetheless, spending quality time with your loved one is all that matters, right?

Ahh, I can see your heads nodding in unison :D

So, for this whole week, I'm already filling up my schedules with things and lot more. I have to fully make use of this precious week before the mugging starts. And I'm guessing it won't be pretty.

Before every new semester starts, I will always have a 50/50 feelings regarding my coming back to school, the half-heartedness towards school and what nots. However, this time, I'm kinda looking forward for school; more like erm, say, 70/30? And no, it's not about my meeting up new friends or even BFF in school. It has nothing to do with guys even. I know, I'm proud of myself too. HAHA. Come on, what or who to look at when I already have that special little one locked in my petite heart <3 *smiles dreamily, ahhh ~

It's just that spending my time studying in school would be more productive, rather than doing nothing at home, just watching the telly and hook up in front of the lappy.

Alright alright, I know that even when school has started, I would be more hooked up with the lappy, right? Oh wells.

On a side note, to be extreme would be packing my bag at this moment, which I will never do. It's just too weird and....extreme. Besides that, I'm kinda of starting to do some reading up for the new semester. HAHA. Like hardcore mugger right? It's just that the mods I'm taking seem so interesting and in a way, fun. Plus, I'm kinda gung-ho-ish to make the GPA score higher. My current, is humbly nice. But, a higher GPA won't hurt right? Moreover, a perfectionist, I am. Need I say more? :D

Plus, I already planned what to wear during the first week. I know, I'm sucha kiasu-pot. Oh wells. Planner must plan and can't stray away from planning. *jumps around in excitement!* But of course, things will change. My plans usually doesn't falls into place. Instead, something even more exciting might happen! Shall wait and see :D

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*random starts*

Yesterday's window shopping trip has been quite fruitful and it still continuing. I mean, when does it ever stop? Or start for that matter, yes? :D

Suddenly, I feel the need for a new bag (which I really need. It's high time I changed it) . A new wallet. A new perfume (YES! new scent would be nice). New shoes (definitely will get them). New clothes (time for some online retail therapy!) New books (which I've been meaning to go down to the library to loan them). Well, they always say that you can never have enough of just one. HAHA.

We'll go shopping, or window shopping again soon alright my love? :D

*random ends*
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Well, the point is, I miss school.

Those were the sunny good old days. And now, well, nothing's like that anymore. That's what you get when you get old with age and when the learning ladder gets higher. Can't complain, since it's the way things are.

The weather's cool and cold to sleep in or to snuggle in bed with a good book, and a cup of chilled chocolate milk. *dreamy sigh* And it's all gonna end in less than a month.

Life really have to go on.

Till then, goodbye.

nurul penned her thoughts at 8:41 PM Y

Sunday, March 22, 2009

i can't help but to post this ...

:D :D :D

nurul penned her thoughts at 8:34 AM Y

Friday, March 13, 2009

randomness.

My Personality


Neuroticism	51
Extraversion	95
Openness To Experience	93
Agreeableness	41
Conscientiousness	46

"You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activites. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions."

Wow. I think I see some truth somewhere in there. :D

Though, I still think there are also some false somewhere as well. Oh well. It's a computer generated test, what to expect? Too technical already lah ~

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On a side note, it's nearly time to take out the champagne bottle and glasses to hold a toast - marking the last 2 weeks of my internship at SSC. Weeeeee ~

After this, there'll be no more worries. No more squeezing the brain for thinking of what to do. No more late nights that would lead to restless sleep which would make one sick. No more worrying about wanting to go out but you can't since you've to go to "much loved" work during office hours. And of course, no more waking up as early at six in the morning just to get ready to go to work. Gosh, being such a sleep-aholic, sleeep is like the best thing on earth! (although it is very counter productive, but who cares!=X)

Haven't been blogging for the past few days due to the work and touch ups for the final report and also, there hasn't been much to blog about. That too, I was sick from the late nights of not sleeping and my lappy has been my closest company for my late nights, doing work of course.

I'm still doing the report as of now, just taking a break just to type whatever comes to mind. Rather than thinking of the correct sentence structure for the report. Feels good to be able to blog about mindless stuff and get my mind off work once in a while. Haha.

Erm, okay, I guess, I better start with the final leap with my report. I've yet to do the executive summary, conclusion and personal reflection mind you. Better get moving. Off I go ~

Till then, take care earthlings (:

Oh, by the way, today's Friday the 13th! Okay, bye(:

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I got a lot of things
I have to do;
All this distractions
Our future coming soon

We’re being pulled
A hundred different directions
But whatever happens
I know I got you

You’re on my mind
You’re in my heart
It doesn’t matter where we are
We’ll be alright
Even if we’re miles apart

All I wanna do
Is be with you
Be with you
There’s nothing we can’t do
Just wanna be with you
Only you

No matter where life takes us
Nothing can break us apart
You know it’s true
I just wanna be with you

*credits to all uploaders(:

nurul penned her thoughts at 10:54 PM Y

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

asshole donkey

It's one of the worst and the utmost horrible day I had in the first week of March.

The trivial research he was asking me to do was today's most dreaded work. I guess its the MOST dreaded thing to do for everyone if he were to ask them. Yes, simply wasting my time!

This thing falls under the nightmare of the nightmare of the most dreaded thing to do to be ever done by students, I mean interns and in this case, me.

The work he gave me was so ....... I can't even come up with a proper word to fully describe the harshness, cruelty, and the horror of this task that was given. And I can still picture his obnoxious face when he commanded me into his office. Two words, FUCKING DISGUSTING.

It's the (and pardon me for the various explicits that are gonna be typed out) DAMNED,BLOODY BASTARD, MOST FUCKED UP IMBECILE THAT HAS EVER WALKED INTO THE FACE OF THIS EARTH AND TARNISHED IT WITH HIS INSOLENCE AND DAMNED FUCKING ATTITUDE to get back at me for the complaints against him, when I'm not really involved in the discussions in meetings that he accused me to be in. And the numerous hours of time spent wasted on this pathetic research that has yet to benefit me in the near future. Well, it's really not my fault that the whole department have a lot of things against him for being such a loser.

So yeah, I guess, that kinda summarizes it up, though I know it is only the tip of the iceberg.

Right now, I'm just hoping for the best with hope(yes, I'm hoping-.-) that time would past faster in the office and then that my assessment marks(if there is) will raise the grade up so it can be nice enough for the people at the preferred varsity to accept me. *sinister laughs*

So, DAMNED,BLOODY BASTARD, MOST FUCKED UP IMBECILE THAT HAS EVER WALKED INTO THE FACE OF THIS EARTH AND TARNISHED IT WITH HIS INSOLENCE AND DAMNED FUCKING ATTITUDE ________ - shan't say his name. It's too despicable for me to even think about it much less typed it. I hope what comes around, goes around for YOU!

Till then, I'm happy to be blogging again.Weeeeeeeeeee ~

Love, me.

p/s: this post was written after the one on one conversation with the AD, and it is out of anger.

nurul penned her thoughts at 2:59 PM Y