Saturday, October 17, 2009

randoms: Bill Gates 

Bill Gates gave a speech about 11 things that kids did not and will not learn in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.  I don't know how legit this is, but its supposedly what Bill Gates said at a high school last year. Either way its got some good advice to it. Love him or hate him, he sure hits the nail on the head with this.

#1: Life is not fair - get used to it

#2: The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something before  you feel good about yourself.

#3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

#4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

#5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

#6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

#7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

#8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to anything in real life.

#9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

#10: Television is not real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

#11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

I can't agree more(:

**credits to several websites

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

randoms starts.

It is not uncommon for Hollywood comedies to feature someone who has little friends, no significant other and basically no social life to speak of still living under the same roof as his parents even after he turns 21. The western practice of moving out of the parents' house the moment one enters adulthood can be found in so many movies and television series that it's not surprising if Asians youth are starting to accept and aspire to this kind of lifestyle. Yes, no doubt I'm an Asian, (but not saying that I'm proud to be one-.-) and I harbour certain images of myself moving out from my parents' when I ultimately reach 21.  I harbour the fantasy of having my own little place to stay, of course definitely far far away from my homeland.

Frankly speaking, I'm not ashamed to say that I've often toyed with the idea of moving out after having a row with my parents over the littlest things. From leaving my mug on the table to the heap of clothes piled on the floor, you name it, we've often argued about it (but of course, I can't be bothered to even create a conversation with them). I've got better things to do at home.

Surprisingly, when I was younger, perhaps around my early primary school days, these things didn't bother me at all. I simply submitted to my mom and dad's authority and listened to whatever they said. Now that I'm an adult, however, these seemingly trivial squabbles have suddenly become an issue of personal freedom and space. If you are like me - already considered an adult, yet still a student living off from parents, you would probably share my struggle between feeling like a grown-up one hand and a child on the other. Switching between the two is a pain, to say the least. In my eyes, my parents are not longer omniscient. Yet, they still behave like they are, and that I should abide by their rules. I can only think of one simple solution to this predicament: moving out would not only grant me unlimited freedom, it would also validate my existence as a mature adult, at the ripe old age of 21.

That being said, there's always the issue of money. Without it, dreams remain just that - the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, the castle in the clouds, and maybe even a delusion. Being a cash-strapped tertiary student, the only way I can afford a place to call my own would be to work part-time, rent somewhere cheap, and split the cost with roommates. But how practical is that? School takes up so much of my time, and then studying for exams, chilling out with friends and enjoying myself are way higher on my agenda that working to pay for the rent.

Okay, perhaps I'm plain lazy, but working life would hit me soon anyway. I'll probably be spending the next few decades pushing papers under the harsh fluorescent lights of a freezing office cubicle to pay off bills, loans and what-have-yous.

Well, I've set myself a target: if all goes well, I'll be living on my own when I reach mid 20s. By that time, I'd have paid off my tuition loans, have a job with a steady income, and hopefully have learnt to manage my finances properly. Until then, the issues of personal freedom and space will always be gnawing at me. The thought of being stifled until I get hitched is simply too much to bear.

Ultimately, deciding when to move out is a personal decision. Everyone has a different situation at home, and more importantly different family structure and background. If life was a Hollywood movie, I'd be most probably be living on my own in my own trendy apartment, hanging out and spending time with my significant other, sipping ridiculously-priced wines nightly. But for now, I'll have to settle for my whatever is at home, and feeling like a kid under my parents' roof.

randoms end.

gooodnight and gooodmorning.

inspired by CLEO

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Let's calculate the total cost spent on the 25th July 2009:

McDonald's Seaweed Fries - $2.50
Faster Shoes - $19.90
Bag - $15
Gucci inspired Belt - $5
Iced Milo - $1.50
Ice Cream Soda - $1.20

Total: $45.10

Mdm Wong's
Lunch @ Hip Diner USA $24.45 
Printed Whiskey T-shirt - $10
Button-down, Fred Perry inspired shirt - $10
Shoes - $15.90
Belt - $5
Handphone Cable - $14.90
Ribena - $1.50
Adidas Water Bottle - $6.70

Total:  $88.45

Converse Shoes - $59.90
Ribena - $1.50
Adidas products - $58.30
Levi's products - $149

Total: $268.70

Dinner @ Hot Tomato Express - $38.15

Total: $38.15

.... and the cost of the time spent together plus the friendship that we share,



a truckload filled with thanks to BFFs for the dayout. (:


Saturday, July 25, 2009

It is this final lap that determines what kind of person you are.

Only time will tell.

goodnight and goodmorning.

Monday, June 08, 2009

Thursday, May 14, 2009

one two three words. 




thirty six.


facility management.

one nine five.

the central.

seven eleven.

long island.




Friday, May 01, 2009

Friday, April 17, 2009

"Life lives, life dies. Life laughs, life cries. Life gives up and life tries. But life looks different through everyone's eyes.”


It's ironic how it's number 2 on most people's list. Number 1 happens to be the fear of public speaking. And death, it's taken number 2.

For me personally, I'm not sure which is worst. To die and leave your loved ones forever with no form of contact - maybe in dreams? But then again, that's a bit far-fetched since I'm not sure how it goes. For all you know, it's the play of the sub-conscious mind on us. Or to humiliate yourself in front of many that may scarred you, prolly for the rest of your life and that it might affect your self-confidence to talk in front of people?

See, both are equally bad I suppose. One can never decipher or explain which is worst. At least, in my own brief explanation, I think I've summed up the general idea.

Death's never easy on the people. It leaves a permanent emotional scar in their hearts and that that empty void will always be there, no matter how long it's been. The saying, "Time heals all wounds" is such a major understatement. I suppose it's being coined to maybe ease a little bit of the pain? Maybe the pain would in some ways, subside, but it'll always be there when you visit places which holds a lot of memory. In some ways, you'll miss them and you'll still hope that their face, voices will still be remembered by you. And you dread the day when you start "losing" the face and maybe you'll forget how they sound like.

My grandmother was a noisy and pushy old woman, but despite that, she was hardworking and had a good sense of humour. Like a class clown of sorts. She was 78 and yet, she had left. It's really sad not to mention devastating that death could end her life so abruptly - she must've been thinking that she was still in the prime of my mom, my dad, my uncles, my auntys, wanting to provide many things for the family etc. Then again, like the saying, her fate was already written.

The dead or should I say, the departed wouldn't wanna us to mourn for them throughout our lives, putting a stop in our daily routine to mourn for them. They would (I think) want us to slowly to make our move on with life. They are indeed as hard as it is to say, part of the past now, nothing will ever bring them back to our present or our future. Maybe in dreams. But what's important is now and that the present holds much more. I'm not saying we can't mourn, but do not mourn excessively. It'll not only bring harm to you, but think of what the departed would say, when they see you in such a state.

Of course, words are easy to write, but the hardest part comes when it's being applied to reality. And as cliche as it may sound, I hope I'll stay strong and that I'm sure, my granns, is in a better place right now.

Rest in peace, granns.

Thursday, April 09, 2009


What is your True Fear?
Your Result: Where Your life is Going
You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what.
You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan.
What is your True Fear?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Sometimes, these kind of things speak nothing but the truth. Oh wells.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

getting ready for school   ...not

This week, marks the last three weeks of the holidays which means once it's over, it'll mark the end of the holidays, and then make way for the semester which will commence on the 20th! And I totally cannot bring myself to the point that I spent my 10 weeks of holidays just like that. 70% on a not-so-exciting internship, and 30% on enjoyment. What an excruciating way to spend the holidays! Nonetheless, spending quality time with your loved one is all that matters, right?

Ahh, I can see your heads nodding in unison :D

So, for this whole week, I'm already filling up my schedules with things and lot more. I have to fully make use of this precious week before the mugging starts. And I'm guessing it won't be pretty. 

Before every new semester starts, I will always have a 50/50 feelings regarding my coming back to school, the half-heartedness towards school and what nots. However, this time, I'm kinda looking forward for school; more like erm, say, 70/30? And no, it's not about my meeting up new friends or even BFF in school. It has nothing to do with guys even. I know, I'm proud of myself too. HAHA. Come on, what or who to look at when I already have that special little one locked in my petite heart <3 *smiles dreamily, ahhh ~

It's just that spending my time studying in school would be more productive, rather than doing nothing at home, just watching the telly and hook up in front of the lappy.

Alright alright, I know that even when school has started, I would be more hooked up with the lappy, right? Oh wells.

On a side note, to be extreme would be packing my bag at this moment, which I will never do. It's just too weird and....extreme. Besides that, I'm kinda of starting to do some reading up for the new semester. HAHA. Like hardcore mugger right? It's just that the mods I'm taking seem so interesting and in a way, fun. Plus, I'm kinda gung-ho-ish to make the GPA score higher. My current, is humbly nice. But, a higher GPA won't hurt right? Moreover, a perfectionist, I am. Need I say more? :D

Plus, I already planned what to wear during the first week. I know, I'm sucha kiasu-pot. Oh wells. Planner must plan and can't stray away from planning. *jumps around in excitement!* But of course, things will change. My plans usually doesn't falls into place. Instead, something even more exciting might happen! Shall wait and see :D

*random starts*

Yesterday's window shopping trip has been quite fruitful and it still continuing. I mean, when does it ever stop? Or start for that matter, yes? :D

Suddenly, I feel the need for a new bag (which I really need. It's high time I changed it) . A new wallet. A new perfume (YES! new scent would be nice). New shoes (definitely will get them). New clothes (time for some online retail therapy!) New books (which I've been meaning to go down to the library to loan them). Well, they always say that you can never have enough of just one. HAHA.

We'll go shopping, or window shopping again soon alright my love? :D

*random ends*

Well, the point is, I miss school.

Those were the sunny good old days. And now, well, nothing's like that anymore. That's what you get when you get old with age and when the learning ladder gets higher. Can't complain, since it's the way things are.

The weather's cool and cold to sleep in or to snuggle in bed with a good book, and a cup of chilled chocolate milk. *dreamy sigh* And it's all gonna end in less than a month.

Life really have to go on.

Till then, goodbye.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Friday, March 13, 2009


My Personality
Openness To Experience

"You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activites. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions."

Wow. I think I see some truth somewhere in there. :D

Though, I still think there are also some false somewhere as well. Oh well. It's a computer generated test, what to expect? Too technical already lah ~


On a side note, it's nearly time to take out the champagne bottle and glasses to hold a toast - marking the last 2 weeks of my internship at SSC. Weeeeee ~ 

After this, there'll be no more worries. No more squeezing the brain for thinking of what to do. No more late nights that would lead to restless sleep which would make one sick. No more worrying about wanting to go out but you can't since you've to go to "much loved" work during office hours. And of course, no more waking up as early at six in the morning just to get ready to go to work. Gosh, being such a sleep-aholic, sleeep is like the best thing on earth! (although it is very counter productive, but who cares!=X)

Haven't been blogging for the past few days due to the work and touch ups for the final report and also, there hasn't been much to blog about. That too, I was sick from the late nights of not sleeping and my lappy has been my closest company for my late nights, doing work of course.

I'm still doing the report as of now, just taking a break just to type whatever comes to mind. Rather than thinking of the correct sentence structure for the report. Feels good to be able to blog about mindless stuff and get my mind off work once in a while. Haha.

Erm, okay, I guess, I better start with the final leap with my report. I've yet to do the executive summary, conclusion and personal reflection mind you. Better get moving. Off I go ~

Till then, take care earthlings (:

Oh, by the way, today's Friday the 13th! Okay, bye(:

I got a lot of things
I have to do;
All this distractions
Our future coming soon

We’re being pulled
A hundred different directions
But whatever happens
I know I got you

You’re on my mind
You’re in my heart
It doesn’t matter where we are
We’ll be alright
Even if we’re miles apart

All I wanna do
Is be with you
Be with you
There’s nothing we can’t do
Just wanna be with you
Only you

No matter where life takes us
Nothing can break us apart
You know it’s true
I just wanna be with you

*credits to all uploaders(:

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

asshole donkey

It's one of the worst and the utmost horrible day I had in the first week of March.

The trivial research he was asking me to do was today's most dreaded work. I guess its the MOST dreaded thing to do for everyone if he were to ask them. Yes, simply wasting my time!

This thing falls under the nightmare of the nightmare of the most dreaded thing to do to be ever done by students, I mean interns and in this case, me.

The work he gave me was so ....... I can't even come up with a proper word to fully describe the harshness, cruelty, and the horror of this task that was given. And I can still picture his obnoxious face when he commanded me into his office. Two words, FUCKING DISGUSTING.

It's the (and pardon me for the various explicits that are gonna be typed out) DAMNED,BLOODY BASTARD, MOST FUCKED UP IMBECILE THAT HAS EVER WALKED INTO THE FACE OF THIS EARTH AND TARNISHED IT WITH HIS INSOLENCE AND DAMNED FUCKING ATTITUDE to get back at me for the complaints against him, when I'm not really involved in the discussions in meetings that he accused me to be in. And the numerous hours of time spent wasted on this pathetic research that has yet to benefit me in the near future. Well, it's really not my fault that the whole department have a lot of things against him for being such a loser.

So yeah, I guess, that kinda summarizes it up, though I know it is only the tip of the iceberg.

Right now, I'm just hoping for the best with hope(yes, I'm hoping-.-) that time would past faster in the office and then that my assessment marks(if there is) will raise the grade up so it can be nice enough for the people at the preferred varsity to accept me. *sinister laughs*

So, DAMNED,BLOODY BASTARD, MOST FUCKED UP IMBECILE THAT HAS EVER WALKED INTO THE FACE OF THIS EARTH AND TARNISHED IT WITH HIS INSOLENCE AND DAMNED FUCKING ATTITUDE ________ - shan't say his name. It's too despicable for me to even think about it much less typed it. I hope what comes around, goes around for YOU!

Till then, I'm happy to be blogging again.Weeeeeeeeeee ~

Love, me.

p/s: this post was written after the one on one conversation with the AD, and it is out of anger.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

caught in the middle.

52 recommended resources.

around 600 more days.

3 scripts

2 core, 1 specialisation.

6 hours of verdict.

and ONE final decision.

is it worth the investment?

would i feel remorseful or contentment?

my future is bleak.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Saturday, January 31, 2009

i love you, bff.

Finally, after much waiting, I met the other BFF, Mdm Wong Yahsee yesterday. Yippee! It's been like weeks since I've met her in person. :DD

As per usual, we walked around looking for that pair of shoes I'm supposed to buy for work, chatted about the most mundane things which happens to be so enlightening, seeing how much I've not talked to her in real life. Also, the idea that I might not be soooo free when I've started working, kinda saddens me since I'd not be able to meet her as and when I liked to. But, hey, it's the time that's well spent that matters right?

It was indeed fun to see and talk to her again. From, looking at adorable looking plasters at the Watsons to having Subway cookies, to the breaking of my virginity in manicure, and to me accidentally stepping on her pre-mature healing injury. Oops, I'm totally sorry love, it wasn't intentional! Well, it will recover soon; Hansaplast does help, no? =X

I'm gonna miss her when I start working on the 2nd. But but, I bet she'll have a good time working at some place(I'm sure, you're gonna get one! :D), and maybe next week we can meet up again? And this time, we can bring ANdy along. Been a loooong time since we three hang out together! (:

Okay, the clouds are orange-ey right now, And I'm getting sleepy. Such a nice weather to sleep in till tomorrow and just do nothing but SLEEP! Haha. Okay,  I'm such a sleepaholic! =X

Till then, pictures will be uploaded soon.


"My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep. The more I give thee, the more I have, For both are infinite" -William Shakespeare

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.

If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.

If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.

If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.

But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.

I love you, BFF! <3

Saturday, January 24, 2009

why don't you just myob?!

Really. It just sickens me that even people living in the same roof as me, are acting so petty and judgemental. Seriously, don't make me point out the obvious stages of the current situation. Just put that nosey nose of yours away from mine.

It just shames me that we are living under the same roof - not that I'm proud of the family I'm in, but really, have some sense of at least the basic education that you can have, however low it may be. People do have their own lives to live for instead of having to attend each and every ceremony that you want to conduct however good the intentions may be.


Well, I'm gonna do what I do best - pretend you never did exist. Wait, I always do that don't I? =X


That aside, I tell you, my mind is going berserk at an alarming rate. It's too power-pack lah for such a person of my age and intelligence to handle. LOL. Kidding. It's just stretching me really tightly. And it's truly a miracle that none of my strings have been broken. But, I'm gonna make sure everything will be cleared before the next semester starts. Well, at least I do know how to keep my mind occupied, right redranger? (:

Okay, gotta run soon, hopefully it will clear my mind a little.

ARGH, don't hope nurul! >:(

Oh ya, haven't I told you that this song is freaking damn awesome? And Teddy Geiger is one damn hot rocker! :D

-credits to uploader!

I'm blasting off again ~ HAHA.

Voy a soñar contigo.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

a toast to ...

never lie, steal, cheat or drink.

but if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love;

if you must steal, steal away from bad company;

if you must cheat, cheat death;

and if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.


18th's almost here, and I can almost taste it. 

Tuesday, January 06, 2009



So, Canelé Pâtisserie Chocolaterie anytime soon anyone? :D

Monday, January 05, 2009


I had the most memorable night on the first;

There was a cold war at home on the second;

Someone intruded my room and make such a HUGE mess on the third;

I travelled around the east of Singapore for the whole afternoon on the forth;

and I had my worst epitome of cramps on the fifth.


Is it true that bananas are good for menstrual cramps? =S

Sunday, January 04, 2009


previous moments;

at the moment;

as of this moment;

that last moment;

and every moment,

i enjoyed them all(:

The Moment - Kenny G

Friday, January 02, 2009

nobody's home.

her feelings she hides.
her dreams she can't find.
she's losing her mind.
she's fallen behind.
she can't find her place.
she's losing her faith.
she's fallen from grace.
she's all over the place.

she wants to go home, but nobody's home.
that's where she lies, broken inside.
with no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
broken inside.

she's lost inside, lost inside.